Taiwanese girls and crazy ex-boyfriends
Simply put, the last 24 hours of my life have had me going out of my mind.
When I came to Taiwan I’d heard a few stories about Taiwanese girls and their sometimes crazyness. Stories about extreme jealousy, being bombarded with phone calls and SMS messages and wanting marriage commitment after a few months were all in the back of my mind upon arriving.
Thus far my journey into Taiwan’s dating scene has been hit and miss. I’ve been yelled at, watched girls fight over me, been dropped like a hot potato for no apparent reason, had some girls try the subtle ‘buy me this!’ hints dropped at every opportunity they get and so on and so forth.
Mind you I’ve also had some wonderful times too, but thus far the negatives far outweight the positives. Well, almost. I guess the positive of feeling connected with someone overrides the negatives while it lasts.
Anyway, I digress. When I arrived in Taiwan I believed I was more then prepared to face the challenge of the local dating scene. Conscious of the cultural differences and aware that I’d be fighting stereotypes at every turn I thought I had a good shot.
Nothing though, not anything I’d read or heard about prepared me for the crazy ex-boyfriends though. I guess I’ve just been lucky thus far in that regard as it’s never come up. Until now.
Here’s how it went down.
My current girlfriend, who I’ve been seeing for nearly two months now, has started to get pretty serious. I definitely care for her and we’ve moved well beyond the casual dating stage.
Like any other weekend we were at dinner on Saturday night with her cousins and sister. Enjoying the food and chatting away I was initially oblivious at first but later recalled seeing a guy walk in, tap my girlfriend on the shoulder and walk out. His movements were abrupt so I hadn’t noticed it at first but later recalled seeing it out of the corner of my eye.
After a few seconds of what seemed like confusion. My girlfriend got up and went outside.
I got up to go and see what the fuss was about but her cousins and sister told me not to worry.
‘This guy is a joke, don’t worry will be over soon.’
Not knowing who he was or what he wanted I decided not to kick up a fuss and just let whatever was going on play out. In hindsight, that was the biggest mistake I’ve made yet in dating girls here.
After about five minutes of him standing there with his hands on his hips and my girlfriend looking increasingly uncomfortable, they finally came inside. At this point the guy didn’t say anything to me but was clearly giving me the deathstare.
Again, a few seconds of awkwardness (I remained seated as her cousins and sister told me not to worry), my girlfriend grabbed her bag and left with him. Not a word to me.
‘Alright, I’ve been patient – can someone tell me what the hell just happened?’
‘It’s ok. That guy is a joke, he’s jealous of you. Don’t worry, they’re just over there talking. We’ll go to the night market and she’ll join us later.’
This made me extremely uncomfortable.
‘Who is that guy and how did he know we were here?’
I’d recalled my girlfriend telling me about one of her sister’s crazy exes. He’d routinely stalk her house till all hours of the morning and track her down if she went out. Any guy that dated her he’d try to fight.
Y’know, to show her he still cared or something, regardless of the fact she wanted nothing to do with him.
He’d also held her hostage a few times threatening to beat her up if she left… and he’d broken her phone in a fit of rage recently. My girlfriend’s sister was prone to disappearing once every few weeks when this guy would abduct her.
When I asked why they didn’t do anything about it, I was told that the police don’t like to get involved in this sort of stuff as they see it as not important.
Turns out this ex knew the guy who’d interrupted our dinner and my girlfriend’s cousins decided the sister’s ex must have followed us here and called the other guy up, just to shit stir.
Anyway, I sat there anxiously and we continued dinner. I wanted to go outside but decided this was something my girlfriend would probably be best to handle. She’s a strong girl so I figured it’d be ok.
This was the second biggest mistake I made that evening.
When the time came to leave for the nightmarket and still I hadn’t seen any sign of her I pleaded with her sister and cousins.
‘Look I’ll stay here so there’s no fights but please go and get her. This is ridiculous and I’m hugely uncomfortable not knowing what exactly is going on.’
Finally agreeing, they went out to get her and returned about ten minutes later…
…my girlfriend wasn’t with them.
‘Um…she’s gone. We don’t know where they went.’
Now I was ready to panic.
‘but it’s ok, I think she is safe. Let me call her.’
…no answer.
‘Safe? If she’s safe then where is she?’
‘…I don’t know.’
‘Who was that guy?!’
‘just some guy… he’s jealous of you.’
‘so he’s taken her away?!’
‘Yes.’
‘Why doesn’t (name removed) just leave?!!’
‘If she does… he’ll beat her up. He probably take her phone too. She left with him so he wouldn’t fight you.’
‘And you think she is SAFE?!?!’
The complete blaiseness of the trio left me gobsmacked. Meanwhile I had uncomfortable knots in my stomach forming with horrible images of rape, assault and god knows what else forming in my mind.
I knew that if something like this happened back home the outcome probably wouldn’t be good for those involved. If my girlfriend was willing to leave with this guy after he supposedly threatened her he’d have a punch on, what else would he be able to convince her to do?
What followed has easily been the worst 24 hours of my time here in Taiwan.
I stayed with the cousins and sister for the rest of the night glancing at my watch and hoping that my girlfriend would call one of us at any moment to say she was ok and would be joining us – she did call once and spoke briefly to her sister but the call got cut off.
‘He take the phone,’ she explained showing me vivid hand action re-enactments.
I should point out at this point that the cousins and her sister had very little English ability so my information was scarce. I got the feeling much more was going on from the outbursts of rapid talking between them from time to time but nothing was explained to me.
Finally midnight rolled around and we decided to call it a night. By this point I was beyond panic and the deep onset of worry had well and truly encapsulated my thought train.
I’d thought about going to the police but knew all I had for them was ‘some guy ran off with my girlfriend and might be beating her to a bloody pulp or worse’.
I knew nothing more and figured there was little they could do.
With a crushingly overwhelming sense of hopelessness I parted from the trio and went home. Still, I hoped against hope that I’d get that phone call saying she was ok.
I tried to sleep at home with my phone next to me ear so I’d hear it… but it was hopeless. I was worried sick at this point.
At around 3am my phone started to ring and I was relieved to see it was her number.
‘Finally!’ I thought to myself.
I answered the phone and my what little hope I had left sunk from my throat to the pit of my stomach. It was a guy on the phone and I presumed the same guy from the restaurant.
‘Hey you. Fuck you. Yeah… fuck you!’
‘sorry what?’
‘I am (name removed)’s boyfriend. Fuck you. I want to kill you! Where are you?’
‘Where are you? Where is (name removed)?’
‘Where are you? Fuck you… I am (name removed)’s boyfriend.’
The conversation went around in circles in this manner. I sensed this guy didn’t know much English and was doing his best to sound agressive over the phone.
I eventually hung up but for about thirty minutes he kept calling back. I had to pick it up incase my girlfriend managed to get the phone (I never heard her in the background), but I put it on speakerphone and each time it was him calling.
The rest of the night was uneventful, save for my not sleeping at all well due to complete fullblown worry. There had been times I’d felt hopeless in Taiwan what with the language barrier and everything but it’d never been this bad.
When I woke up from a troubled sleep at around 8am, my girlfriends phone had been switched off, run out of battery or worse still, destroyed. It went straight to the ‘this number is unavailable’ message.
It’s been over 24 hours now since I last saw my girlfriend and I’m still a worrying wreck. What exactly has/is happened/happening I have no idea and it’s killing me.
I just hope she’s ok.
So that’s been the last 24 hours of my life. In a country where it’s seemingly normal for ex-boyfriends to hold their exes hostage, beat them and destroy their phones I feel slightly out of place. I don’t know what to think. I’m trying hard not to jump to any conclusions and the wave of emotions and thoughts I’ve had has been overwhelming.
I’ve been angry at myself for not stepping in, angry at her for leaving without saying anything or explaining, angry at her cousins and sister for not being able to fill me in properly… worried to death that he’s done something to her, that she’s hurt or worse, I don’t know. But most of all it’s not knowing. That’s a deep worrying sadness that’s underneath any other thoughts I’ve had.
Meanwhile, I’m stuck waiting for a phonecall, email or something to tell me she’s ok. For now that’s all I’m worried about. What exactly went down and who he is can come later.
Apologies if I don’t write over the next few days – I’m not in the right headspace for it.
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August 30th, 2010 at 10:55 am lemmiwinks(Quote)
Holy shit! That’s some crazy stuff right there. I can’t believe this is considered normal in Taiwan.
Hope it all works out OK ASAP and your gal returns safe and well.
August 30th, 2010 at 10:58 am Erica(Quote)
Im sorry for what happened oz. From experiences I think your gf should be ok.
I even suspect that he ‘is’ (notice not ‘was’) her bf indeed. Asian girls have the habit of … having one bf but look for another one. (‘Riding a donkey while looking for a horse’ the old Chinese saying!) So she might be seeing this guy first, but then met you and decided to prob drop the guy off.
If that’s the story then of course she wouldn’t tell you anything yeah? Anyway, just hope she is ok! let us know.
August 30th, 2010 at 1:03 pm ozsoapbox(Quote)
Yeah alot has been going through my mind over the last day and a half. As hard as it is not to jump to all these conclusions I’m trying not to. I trust her enough to give her the benefit of the doubt until she’s explained.
We’ve spent that much time together these past few months I don’t really see how she could have another boyfriend on the side but anyway.
Still haven’t heard anything and her phone’s diverting to the ‘number you have called is unavailable’ message in chinese.
Got work today and don’t really feel like going
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August 30th, 2010 at 1:16 pm Elbogrease(Quote)
you should have refused to let your girl outside in the first place.
Find this turkey and give him a slap. You are now marked as a pussy on his eyes and will have to go harder when you decide to bash the prick.
August 30th, 2010 at 2:10 pm cbp(Quote)
I feel for you Ozsoapbox – that’s a terrible story. Dealing with the police in Japan was a big wake up call for me (to come home).
August 30th, 2010 at 3:02 pm ozsoapbox(Quote)
It all happened so fast as I had no idea. The guy just came in (I didn’t see him come in), tapped her on the shoulder and then marched out. I picked up on it during the confusion ‘uh what was that?’ stage then my girlfriend just got up and went outside before anything registered. At that stage I had no idea who he was.
When they came in I had her cousins and sister telling me not to worry so I didn’t think it was worth making a scene. I guess I wrongly assumed she had it under control.
In hindsight lesson learnt, but at the time I was playing it by ear. I’ve personally never come across this sort of behaviour before so didn’t really know how to read the situation either.
(part of the reason I put this story up, to give others a heads up if it ever happens to them)
August 30th, 2010 at 4:26 pm Erica(Quote)
wish you all the best! hope she is not disappearing on you!
August 30th, 2010 at 8:25 pm Ralb38(Quote)
Am sorry to hear this, hope it all gets sorted out soon
August 30th, 2010 at 9:36 pm Tony(Quote)
Move on dude….. you are too good for them. I have had my Taiwan experience and my advice is too move on and forget about it.
Look after yourself because in Taiwan noone will look after you. Liars and dishonesty are what it is all about in Taiwan/China… come and see me in Shenzhen and we will party my boy !!!!!!!!!
Go Collingwood !!!
August 30th, 2010 at 11:18 pm Erica(Quote)
@ tony: sounds like you had your fair share in TW. it’s not that bad man! not all TW people are liars or dishonest! and Collingwood?!?!?! :O has that got anything to do with this article? lol!
August 30th, 2010 at 11:18 pm Ben(Quote)
Jeez Oz,
I’ve been lurking here for a few weeks reading your posts, I have a little brother in China and since I don’t hear from him I’ve found your page to be a insight into living overseas.
This is not a good story, I just hope it has a better ending mate!! I’ll keep my fingers crossed for you, and if you spot this guy again.. I think a bit of a slap is in order
August 31st, 2010 at 2:00 am Caffeinated SentryGnome(Quote)
Dude that sux. Been in similar tho not quite the same but I’m sure the feeling is pretty close. Back last year I got a call from my gf (now ex) she was drunk wandering round town looking for my housemate (one of the girls from my ex work) was also drunk and she wanted me to come pick her up and help her find my housemate.
So I jump in my car to get her. Ge to wher she said she was, can’t find her drive up the street can’t see her. So I call her, phone rings out. Call her again, rings out again. So I drive for a bit and call again Call gets cut off. So I call again get the this number is univalible message. After driving and walking till 7.30am I was tired and had a sleep.
She came home round 3am. Turns out she got in another guys ute and he took her too the next town and took her phone off her. Similar happened over the next few weeks. Her dissapering her phone being off her not coming home till the next day or longer. Me worrying about her cos I didn’t know where she was.
Turns out it was a waste of my time she was off with the same guy. She dumped me went with him. Prettty shitty deal since we were engaged.
Most the times she went missing was when we were ment to be meeting up somewhere.
I hope it all turns out good for you. I absoultly hated it when my ex went missing. Hated even more when he came round to help her move out.
August 31st, 2010 at 3:43 am ozsoapbox(Quote)
Thanks for the thoughts guys. Still no idea what’s going on and I’m starting to think we’re drifting into either ‘I’m too embarassed to contact you’ or as Erica mentioned, the dissapearing act. Still trying to not jump to any conclusions until I know for sure what happened/is happening but it’s hard.
Her phone’s back on so that’s a good sign I guess. I’ve called twice though and no answer, could be she’s sleeping it off if it was traumatic. I’d like to think I was the first person she’d call when she plugged it into the charger but I digress.
@Ben
Thanks for that. I hope that in some way by documenting my experiences here people can get an idea of what Taiwan life is like for an outsider. A lot of the stuff on the net is your basic tourist information stuff which is good for tourists but not really applicable if you want to live here.
I’ll keep writing as long as people keep reading so thanks again.
I’m not the kind of guy to randomly just start belting into someone but I’ve definitely learnt my lesson about letting girls go off with guys here if they don’t look comfortable. Regardless of what friends/sisters say.
If I get beat up a bit over it I’d still rather know the girl was safe then having no idea. I know I won’t be giving this guy an inch if I ever run into him again with her… if things work out that is.
@Tony
Guess I haven’t been stuffed around enough to develop the jaded thick skin yet. Part of me still clings onto the thinking that everything has a valid explanation.
Admittedly it’ll probably do me more harm than good in the long term but you are who you are.
@Sentry Gnome
Wow engaged and all! I’m only a few months in and smitten so I can’t imagine what’d be like being engaged and having it happen. I guess at least you didn’t know it was a guy till after.
I don’t get what the attraction for her was with some guy who took her to another town and confiscated her phone though… did she have a dependent personality?
Hope things worked out for you in the end as I don’t imagine that’s too easy to recover from. Thanks for sharing your story mate.
August 31st, 2010 at 6:21 am Andy(Quote)
Ouch.. So sorry to hear about what happened. I would forget about her and look for some other chick. You really do not need the headache. Some of these women and men can be more headache than you can actually handle or need. One thing is for sure and that is that she has problems and he has problems.
I would leave their problems to themselves. If you get in the middle it could get ugly and it is not worth it. Get a new cell number and move on.
The longer you stay in Taiwan the more you will understand why so many people are either single or divorced but most important will realize why the lesbian and gay population are growing at an alarming rate.
August 31st, 2010 at 10:51 am bushrat(Quote)
I agree with Andy, Oz,
My son is going through this exact same thing. Here – Now. And its getting very messy, and dangerous. AVO’s against violent ex boyfriend, and a gal who doesnt seem to be able to make up her mind.
I am so glad that I am past the female hunting phase of my life, although I would be the first to admit that I really dug it!
These days, even here is Aus., there are a very high percentage of these younger girls who are just plainly FUCKED UP.
Out of curiosity, is this young lady in the habit of getting on Facebook?
From my current and recent experience with this situation, I know that this so called “social networking site” has played a large part in son’s my current drama’s.
Some of these girls that I know love nothing to sit in the comfort of thier homes and shot berries everywhere with this shit of a thing, it should be banned.
Anyhow, I feel for you mate, and hope it works out for the best.
August 31st, 2010 at 2:57 pm Maroon(Quote)
Look, surely you can go to the Tw police and report her as a missing person. Then they can come back to you and tell you if she is OK, and whether she wants to see you ..the trouble is that there is trouble here.. possibly big trouble..if you try to take the ex on he might not fight back with fists but a weapon. You sound like you are still young OZ, wait till you come back home, or move to another western country to find a girl, where a decent police force would investigate an incident like this.
August 31st, 2010 at 7:10 pm Erica(Quote)
just let us know what happened! hope she is safe that’s the main thing!
September 1st, 2010 at 1:30 am smithee(Quote)
I can understand how you didn’t react at the time. It happens fast, her friends say “it’s OK, don’t worry”, and things go from there.
You’ve *got to* trust your girl and she’s got to trust you if anything long term is to happen. She’s got to be cluey enough to be able to give you “the signal” if she needs help, and you’ve got to be alert enough to know when she might need help.
Basically I think you did the right thing even though it hasn’t worked out too well so far.
I recall years ago going out with an absolute stunner and we were hopelessly in love. I wrestled with myself for ages but finally left her because she was just plain dumb. Not academically stupid, but she simply couldn’t “read” a situation or ever understand the dynamics of a subtle situation, and that grew incredibly fustrating.
Anyway Oz, good luck !
September 1st, 2010 at 3:43 am Caffeinated SentryGnome(Quote)
dependent personality? how’d you guess?
that was the short version, the extended one includes the new female housemate that hated me and living with my best mates ex. all good now tho, it was hard there for a while. i have a few good mates. and that which don’t kill you is piss weak compared to you.
yeah you probably did the right thing, you trusting them is important. i tried to do that but i was betrayed.
during that time a drunk guy came round my place a few times and gave me this advice:
1. don’t hold her too tight or she will want to leave
2. trust her to come back if she leaves
3. if they don’t come back they weren’t yours anyway. yours is still out there go find her
4. tuffen up princess or Monday morning i’ll see you at the local dress shop for a petticoat fitting 8am sharp!
5. if she needs you she will ask you
6. get her to duct tape you to the bed posts its fantastic….
im not sure if any of that is helpful or not.
my ex could not see why i was getting annoyed at her for hanging round him. in the end to her it was my fault she wanted to leave me because every time she came back from there i was annoyed at her (hard not to when the whole town was telling you she was cheating on you with him) and it was my problem and nothing to do with her actions. i had just become an asshole and she had done nothing wrong.
in hind site i should have just let her go early instead of going through hell to try and work things out.
i really do hope it works out for you.
September 1st, 2010 at 10:09 am bushrat(Quote)
What more can be said, except, good luck and we all hope the situation resolves for the better.
Just let the dust settle and see where it goes mate.
September 1st, 2010 at 10:11 pm Tony(Quote)
Hmmmmm…
been a few days now…. what would I do ?
feel pissed off because
1. she just let herself get kidnapped like that and did not ask for your help in the process
2. has not tried to get in touch with you
3. maybe there is a an ulterior motive behind all this
4. maybe she was using you all along to get back to her ex and the resulting scenario is what she wanted
5. truth is stranger than fiction
like i said a few days ago….. move on because this shit is weird as… I used to remember reading the english newspaper from Taipei 20 odd years ago and reading weird shit that used to happen in Taiwan like kidnappings etc and thought to myself wtf!!
keep us informed please.
September 2nd, 2010 at 6:46 am Andy(Quote)
If she loves you and wants you then she will come to you but if she can’t make up her mind then she definitely has some issues and you don’t need a lady that has issues in her life along with a man that has issues as well. The old saying “Hear no evil see no evil”. This island is full of single women lol.. There are plenty of fish in the water. If I was single again I would be getting laid here every other day lol.
She’s not worth it so try and forget about her instead of blaming him. Remember, it takes two to tango. A lot of these women here look cute and innocent on the outside but once you spend a little time with them you realize that they have psychological and mental problems lol..
September 2nd, 2010 at 3:08 pm bushrat(Quote)
Damn straight! Unfortunately………….
September 3rd, 2010 at 1:42 am ozsoapbox(Quote)
@Andy
Easier said than done. I’ve become quite attached to this girl over the past few months.
@bushrat
I believe so but the Chinese one, not English. I don’t believe she’s the kind of girl who is attempting to play us against one another though. That and I don’t think any of this came about via Facebook, seemed to be more of a ‘mobile phone/someone was following our group’ thing.
@Maroon
I could have, but what then?
‘Hi my name’s Oz. My girlfriend’s name is xxx, she’s missing. If I blurted that out at a police station there’s a good chance nobody would understand what I was saying.
If they did they’d probably want to ask me questions and then I wouldn’t understand what they were asking.
Also how would I answer them? I don’t know the guy or where he lives… remember I knew nothing at that point.
@Andy
That’s one of the biggest things I struggle with here, just the fact that it’s a different culture. I have to keep reminding myself that.
I think this in part plays down to the general calmness of it all sometimes. Not that I’m saying you should expect what happened or tolerate it, but the reactions between myself and her sister and cousins for example was crystal clear.
They weren’t upset till she got home and told them what happened whereas my alarm bells went off on Saturday night when they couldn’t find her.
September 3rd, 2010 at 11:02 am bushrat(Quote)
Oz, for your own peace of mind, I would suggest you have a talk to her cousins and sister. Tell them how concerned you are, and sound them out.
At least try and get some assurances that she is safe, and if THEY are concerned, suggest a visit to the Police station to make a report on the matter.
If they are not prepared to do this, realistically, there’s not much more you can do.
September 7th, 2010 at 11:36 am seriously?(Quote)
man seriously most people in taiwan are NORMAL, please do not let one psycho make you think this is the norm, there are crazy people in every country, right?
September 10th, 2010 at 10:08 am maroon(Quote)
Dear Oz,
The point about going to the police is that you have at least reported a possible abduction. The police contact the girls family and friends, find out if she is OK and if she wants to see you. If not, then you know, and you can move on with your life, painful as it will be for a while.
It is something we all go thru, particularly when we are young and trying to find a suitable mate. There is always a new love around the corner. For your own health, and the sake of your TW job, you need to know the facts about your GFs disappearance on that night, so you can have peace.
It has been a while, have you found out anymore yet?
September 12th, 2010 at 5:10 pm ozsoapbox(Quote)
@maroon
Part of the problem with this is that it’s not like rocking up to an Australian police station and reporting it. For one there’s the language barrier and secondly I don’t the guy, or where he lives. I know my girlfriends Chinese name and where she lives but I don’t know her parents.
She doesn’t want to tell them to worry them so I’d have the police rocking up to their house with them having no idea and me trying to explain. I know her parents don’t speak English so there’s that too…
If she’d completely dissappeared for a week then yeah I might consider getting my boss involved and making a report at the polcie station or something but I did manage to get in contact with her.
We’ve since talked about what happened and I’m convinced she’s not lying about it.
She’s been watching her security a lot more which is good. Apparently the guy has been trying to get in contact with her telling her he’s sorry and wanting forgiveness etc. She’s just ignoring him and moving on, which I think is the right thing to do given she doesn’t want to make a report.
September 13th, 2010 at 11:56 am maroon(Quote)
Oz, I am so glad to hear from you that your young lady friend is safe & OK. So it was a case of a jeolous boy dragging her away from her dinner, she managed to get away from him, and she does really want to see you?
Still, I would want to advise you to take this relationship slowly. I wonder how you manage to really communicate with the language differences. How is your TW. How is her English?
I am reminded though of a close girlfriend of mine who came to Aust. from Chile some thirty odd yr ago. She spoke limited english. She eventually met a guy from Thailand who had been raised from birth in a buddhist monestery, and who also had limited english.
Well despite the language barrier, they managed to fall in love, marry, have two gorgeous kids and are still married to this day. Its a lovely story, but the point of it is that they managed to overcome many problems because they did truly love each other. But I can tell you, they didn’t rush into things, they did take their time. Best to be sure first.
September 13th, 2010 at 1:32 pm erica(Quote)
I agree with maroon. Oz have u heard from the vanished ex of yours? you trusted her too but it didnt end well. I do hope this time it will be better. Take maroon’s advice to heart oz!
September 14th, 2010 at 10:21 am bushrat(Quote)
Too right cobber!
I lived with my old lady for seven years before I got around to popping the question………………..
September 14th, 2010 at 2:30 pm ozsoapbox(Quote)
@maroon
From what I gather, yeah. She didn’t really put up much of a protest when I said I was coming round to see her, so I think it was mostly she didn’t want me to see her a little bit emotional etc. Chinese face thing I guess.
My Chinese is nowhere near conversational but I’m slowly working on it. Her English is well above average and you can have a fluent conversation with her so that’s one large hurdle overcome. We don’t really have any problems communicating, well outside of this one event anyway.
Glad to hear that it worked out for your friend – I’m also not the kind of guy who jumps into things. Don’t worry, you won’t read about me deciding to get married tommorow on here
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@erica
Nope, not a word. Apart from finding out she’s in the US she all but vanished. I wouldn’t mind hearing one day why she did it but I’m also resigned to the fact that it probably won’t happen. And I’m ok with that, I can’t control other people’s selfishness.
As for trust, a life without trusting people – especially your partners – isn’t much of a life at all.